03 Oct Faith
2020 spring… right after the news the world is closing down
My living room, I have a guest. He’s telling me he was informed – for the next months all his expenses and some extra will be paid, almost his normal salary, without having to work, though. We are in the UK, he has a comfortable flat to live in, also a welcoming mother with her own 2 places. I know him long, I am at peace. He’s panicked, flustered, he spreads around concerns, like fireworks.
My brother videocalls. He lives in Italy, in a hotel room, making his daily money by selling things to shops. He has no friends there. He called to say that Italian borders are closed, so he can’t get out, shops and hotels are closing, so there’s no way to earn nor place to live, hence he will sleep outside, in parks. An instant flood of tears…I cannot stop them…all of a sudden I talk and talk, it’s like a movie, it cannot be…this is surreal…He is surprised by my reaction, the peace he radiates, through screen, is time stopping, thought stopping. Words are coming out of him, slowly, while he is still confused by how I took it. He is talking and pausing for my reactions: ‘You are exaggerating. Concerned can be just someone without faith. I’m only telling you about these changes now because I might not call as often, I might not have a way to charge my phone’. Peace and alignment are radiating out of him, like waves, like snow settling in a snowball, slowing down time, slowing down thoughts.
Picture 3 people on a straight line: I’m on the couch, 1 meter on the phone my brother, 3 meters far my transitory guest, from where I sit, a clear view of both. It was like that. 5 seasons past since then and still with me, this image, it activates, sometimes, when someone’s saying ‘faith’.